More than half way done my work term
Do people still go on Tumblr? I haven’t been on this site in a while..
I try to update my blog on occassion but I realized that I only feel the need to do this when I feel emotional. I don’t particularly feel that way right now but I there are a couple of things on my mind.
WORK: I’m more than half way through my work term and the job has certainly lost its novelty. I understand why I feel this way since it is outside my field. It was not a very good decision on my part to accept a position that really does not have anything to do with what I’m studying. Don’t get me wrong, it does have its good days but it is certainly not a field that I want to pursue in the future. I guess this is part of the whole Co-op education experience. I am getting the “taste” of what it feels like to work for HR and Administration. Even though it may not be where my interests lie, I have to say I am very happy with the connections I am making as well as the Office experience that I’m gaining.
RELATIONSHIPS: Right now, there is such a big push towards getting into a relationship. The constant question I’ve been asked is "Are you seeing someone right now?" and I’m so tired of it. It almost feel as if this topic must be addressed in every meetup with friends. It’s so much pressure especially for someone like I am who is not particularly “seeing” anyone. It’s a lot of pressure and stress. Sometimes it’s to the point that it affects the way I look at myself. I don’t get asked out that often and when girls around me speak of how they have this “thing” with this guy and another thing with this other person, I question, is there something wrong with me? Am I not pretty enough? Attractive? I’m tired of it. It’s a definitely hit on my self esteem and it’s just so unhealthy.
FITNESS: It’s plain and simple. I need more MOTIVATION. In the morning or on my way home I think about going to the gym, yoga or spin class but in the end I don’t end up doing it. Today is an exception though! I actually went to the gym and ran for half an hour. I’m not overly proud of myself because I know I could have done better but I’m glad it’s a first step.
I think I’ve ranted enough. I should get ready for bed and brush up on some notes from my other job. I’m being evaluated and I am actually very nervous! I don’t work over there as often and I haven’t put in enough time and effort. I’ll get on that tonight.
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